It's interesting, but I'm not interested. My center of gravity is over the edge now and I am free falling, but gravity doesn't apply here so I don't even know which way I'm falling or where I'll end up when the fall is over. The feeling is thrilling and while my feet are only just leaving the earth the possibilities are endless. That's how life should be. We shouldn't ever feel stuck because we're always changing. God never created us to be or think just one thing. Our feelings, our circumstances, our behaviors, our thoughts continuously fluctuate... nothing is stagnant. At first I thought it was just the ground trembling, but now every part of me is beginning to flutter and I'm ready to take flight. I want to feel freedom beneath me and over me. Let my heart ignite and burn away all the extra junk until I become what He imagined when I was just a thought, long before creation. It doesn't matter where I am in this world, but I must know where my heart is within me. Can I feel it beating or has it become buried or lost somewhere along the road? I've been clinging to these dreams that have taken off in all directions and the walk has become cold and monotonous. Thank you for making me consider what I really want. Thank you for reminding me of what I really dream of and hope for. Now that I'm here I realize this really is a fork in the road and while one trail looks interesting, I'm really not interested. I planned my route, but He determines my steps. Today it looks like free falling. Tomorrow...? :-)
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